What If?

"What if fear doesn't exist.
The child would not have to lie to his mum.
The girl would not cry for the guy.
The man would not look out the window wondering how to feed his family for the next half year.

What if the world contains no doubt.
The singer would not sit and write that sad song.
The wife would not sniff out her husband's coat.
The old grandma would not frown in her seat on Sunday morning.

What if there is no greed among us.
The businessman would not have to sell his house.
The young lad would be contented being just a friend.
The domestic helper would not have to return to her country in shame.

But then...

How would the child learn that lying is wrong.
How would the girl know of a greater love.
How would the man realize that everyday, they are being fed.

The singer wouldn't know how to tie emotions with skills.
The wife could still be ignoring her husband.
Grandma could be sitting at home wondering when her world will end.

The businessman wouldn't be free enough to be with his children.
That lad wouldn't understand love.
The helper would have to wait two years to see her family again......if all this hadn't happened.


I'd promise you wings to fly, but how would you ever learn to run." -adapted from a friend's blog entry.

There are too many obstacles in life that contains the doubt of 'what if'. At times, we would be too angry with ourselves for just trying too hard or not even trying at all. All in all, we'll somehow just end up in exhaustion. It happens to everyone including me. Too many thoughts, too many plans, too disorganised, etc etc especially now that I'm fully independent and am a working adult already. Somehow, I just feel that I'm half dumped into a vast ocean. Maybe three-quarts in.

I surrender. And...

God, I'm grateful for You.